Il cielo sopra una stanza

Feliz cumple , buon compleanno Mamma ,This song reminds me of you, on the way back with the 500 from your ancestral lands in Mugello, when we sang this song , and it was one of the rare moments when you were totally carefree, expressing yourself before returning back the superficiality and hypocrisy of Rome. in your medieval hamlet, in the middle of the wild and ungentrificated calvana hills, you were the carefree and adventurous And arty girl. in Rome you abbandonned all your artistic skills to love my father. This artistic loss, made you like a the Vesuvio. a fake quietness ready to erupt whenever it was allowed to. You were a brilliant in drawing and an incredible actress, and guess you could hardly fanthom yourself when you were acting or not. but you were not lying, it was just art coming through you, no matter how hard you repressed it. you did this in good faith, but it had brought you a great inner sorrow, that I m not so sure you were totally aware. a woman of strong passions going from passion, to ethereal love, thought serependipity, to the cruelest of hate. all this accordéon and camaieux of hues of emotions without flickering, coming from such an ultraterrestrial yet fragile childlike being. this very turmoil of emotions rendered thou o princess the fragilest, yet the strongest of beings, able to endure with total comitment , the 2 years of agony of my belated father. in immolation thou foundest, thou mission, against all odds, a mission impossible, and like the Titans a part of thou succumbed in the ill omens of destiny and mortality.in many things I m a bit if an illegal blonde( you are or you were legally blonde for decades, and then the coiffeur gave a bit of a touch), maybe due to my ill English jeans , no sorry genes. I was taken aback and frightened by this sudden eruptions. I was in a perennial fear to err, and feeling to walk in arenas movedizas, in moving sands. my English Levi's  made me try to comunicate with you with rationality,in order to help you and the more I was sowing so the more I was driving you crazy. I still have the extreme hability to drive people nuts with my calm yet stubborn polemic rationality , especially damned faggots, who are not really the cleverest of animals. I m not truly a brave person so I guess I decided to be an artist observing your example.I m far less of a diva than you , I m more of a secluded creature longing for a wild hermitage among plants.But I guess it s hard not to be similar in you in many facets. I inherited notwithstanding your Latino theatrically, and your idealist , and total love. In a way you brought me up as being the prince who will deliver you dörnroschen, from your castle of thorns, but alas I was just a kid, and could not save you, tried to save all my exes all with some kind of addiction , I saved them but it was of not avail. the true reality is that my mansion is surrounded by billion of thorns, and I relentlessly continue to plant it...guess I m a bit clueless...

Marco, my father and crysanthemums

 Most of What i ll write about my father is after an introduction on The flower. So if you want You can skip it , and read directly What is genuilely written by myself.I will blatanly copy wikipedia,  : The name "chrysanthemum" is derived from the Greek words chrysos (gold) and anthemon (flower).The genus once included more species, but was split several decades ago into several genera, putting the economically important florist's chrysanthemums in the genus Dendranthema. The naming of the genera has been contentious, but a ruling of the International Botanical Congress in 1999 changed the defining species of the genus to Chrysanthemum indicum, restoring the florist's chrysanthemums to the genus Chrysanthemum.

Yellow or white chrysanthemum flowers of the species C. morifolium are boiled to make a sweet drink in some parts of Asia. The resulting beverage is known simply as chrysanthemum tea (菊花茶, pinyin: júhuā chá, in Chinese). In Korea, a rice wineflavored with chrysanthemum flowers is called gukhwaju (국화주).

Chrysanthemum leaves are steamed or boiled and used as greens, especially in Chinese cuisine. The flowers may be added to thick snakemeat soup (蛇羹) to enhance the aroma. Small chrysanthemums are used in Japan as a sashimi garnish.

Pyrethrum (Chrysanthemum [or Tanacetum] cinerariaefolium) is economically important as a natural source of insecticide. The flowers are pulverized, and the active components, called pyrethrins, which occur in the achenes, are extracted and sold in the form of an oleoresin. This is applied as a suspension in water or oil, or as a powder. Pyrethrins attack the nervous systems of all insects, and inhibit female mosquitoes from biting. In sublethal doses they have an insect repellent effect. They are harmful to fish, but are far less toxic to mammals and birds than many synthetic insecticides. They are not persistent, being biodegradable, and also decompose easily on exposure to light. Pyrethroids such as permethrin are synthetic insecticides based on natural pyrethrum.

• The chrysanthemum is one of the "Four Gentlemen" (四君子) of China (the others being theplum 
• blossom, the orchid, and bamboo). The chrysanthemum is said to have been favored byTao Qian, an 
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• influential Chinese poet, and is symbolic of nobility. It is also one of the four symbolic seasonal flowers.
• A chrysanthemum festival is held each year in Tongxiang, near Hangzhou, China.^[11]
• Chrysanthemums are the topic in hundreds of poems of China.^[12]
• The "golden flower" referred to in the 2006 movie Curse of the Golden Flower is a chrysanthemum.
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• "Chrysanthemum Gate" (jú huā mén 菊花门), often abbreviated as Chrysanthemum (菊花), is 
• taboo slang meaning "anus" (with sexual connotations).

• Chrysanthemums were first cultivated in China as a flowering herb as far back as the 15th century 
• BC.
• An ancient Chinese city (Xiaolan Town of Zhongshan City) was named Ju-Xian, meaning 
• "chrysanthemum city".
• The plant is particularly significant during the Double Ninth Festival

Germany

• Industrial musicians Einstürzende Neubauten base their song "Blume" around the flower.

Japan

Flag of the Emperor of Japan

• In Japan, the chrysanthemum is a symbol of the Emperor and Imperial family. In particular, a "chrysanthemum crest" (菊花紋章, kikukamonshō or kikkamonshō), i.e. a mon of chrysanthemum blossom design, indicates 
• a link to the Emperor; there are more than 150 patterns on this design. 
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• Notable uses of and reference to the Imperial chrysanthemum include:
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• The Imperial Seal of Japan, used by members of the Japanese 
• Imperial family.
• A number of formerly state-endowed shrines (官国弊社, 
• kankokuheisha) have adopted a chrysanthemum crest; most notable of these is Tokyo's Yasukuni Shrine.^[14]
• The Chrysanthemum Throne is the name given to the position of Japanese Emperor.
• The Supreme Order of the Chrysanthemum is a Japanese honor awarded by the Emperor.
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• In Imperial Japan, small arms were required to be stamped with the Imperial Chrysanthemum, as they were considered the personal property of the Emperor.
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• "I m sorry For this partial edited copy of wikipedia, i could have pretended to paraphrase it, but it Would not have been fair. The flower represents The uttermost nobility in Asia and in catholic europe is considered as The flower of The dead . well in this case For me it represents both.  It reminds of my father, a stoic, samourai, who sacrificed his Life For his country. He believed  in The ideals of serving The country as diplomats , as my kinsmen have been doing for centuries. No matter how much he was suffering, he  worked till the  lasts days of his Life. He  fought his  Cancer as a true samourai, with dignity and composure. He never flickered, and searched political help, and he was  much an isolated figure, in th extremely corrupted italian diplomacy. i perceived he lost most of his resilience to live   by the Ministry of Foreign affairs s reluctance  to promote Him as an ambassador, in favour of more political and younger elements. His sheer idealism was somewhat broken, as mortal wound During a fight.
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• This lonesome samourai was born in Tokyo, where my grandad was Working himself as a diplomat. He was 2 when he ended up in a Concentration camp when my grandad , refused to be on Mussolini s side. He and his brother Massimo, where left wild , and became true scoundrels. After They were fred from The camp , my grandad tried to stop Being a dipomat, saddened by italian government . They moved to Brasil where his wife s family had chemical industries, and tried to be a businessman, but his love For serving his country was too strong.In the meantime, two scoundrels(mu father and my uncle)  where playing havoc .There was a private zoo close to where They lived and they fred all the animals. I wonder whether it  was i a subconscious way to deal with being kept captives themselves? I was told my father kept crust of bread under the materras,after each while in Brasil  in case of a similar situation repeats. This very  2 scoundrels, united with a local gang and used to  bresk Public light in the public parks where couples where having sex.. i remember his cruelty on having sex with Aida a girl  my uncle was in love . My father wanted him to realise She was having sex with everyone but with my uncle.. i guess this trait is very japanese and think most westeners Would find it un acceptable .  
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• His ability to break people s illusions was quite strong and it was not easy as a father figure, since i inherited most of my Artistic and dreamy side From my mum. he respected  this artistic side , in a way but did not really  know how to cope with it.  He believed to  respect   artist,but subconsciously he wanted  to control them ( no wonder my  uncle was an artist too). Strangely  enough  he had colon cancer, and according to reflexology colon represents the fear of losing control. Nonetheless , most of my relationship with him was similar with Montaigne 's father .  I was i total awe by his extraordinary knowledge . He  was a Keen esoterist, a passion he cultivated since university since his  final dissertation was about the monastic order the Templars and  their economic management of their monasteries. He was not doing a humanistic degree, but manged somehow to merge his passion with a degree in economics at the Bocconi University.
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• He was an important figure in The Esoterist circle in Rome inspired by Reghini . He Founded   his own magazine Politica Romana with eminent esoterists,stressing  on Romanology . His books Arcana Urbis and il cerchio magico are still the most comprehensive books  on The subject. it dispells all The ideas, that romans were mere copycats of the Etruscans and The Greeks. He  Found evidences t hat Virgilius was not Just a political creator of myths.
• Our Home was everything but cosy my friends were not very keen on visiting me: it Looked  a bookshop, loaded with books.  Every morning the  first thing i SAw as soon as I was  leaving my room was The tibetan book of The dead . So i grew up with book on India china and mysterious things, but  Marco  was extremely rational . He was very unhappy of my dyslexia and as a child I  did not touch a book, especially because They wanted me to read adventure books , and bloody hell i m a faggot, no Wonder The first book i read was One thousand nights. what surprised me was his uncoherence , my grandad had to BURN in several  occasions his magazines because he did not want to read books. he was very bad at School , Being a scoundrel' but For his final exam he read everything he did not read and For 6 months he studied night and day. His will was very strong

Planting the gardens of Adonai/Halloween / Bacchus

Tulips and bulbs are the prefect example of ritual plants. They are planted during fall to prepare the spring. They can be linked to the gardens of Adonis, where plants were cultivated in pots and then dried in the heats of summer. Adonis has been linked to wheat, the main food of European and west Asian people. in fact it has a similar growing time as spring bulbs, which disappear in the heat of summer. Needless to say, tulips have been introduced( even if they are found wild in Europe , as I found reading the post of Laurent Lieser, one of the biggest experts on tulips and bulbs) from Turkey to the Botanist Clusius,where they have been cherished for centuries, and growing from there to Turkmenistan .tulips are linked to Holland and Flanders, due to Tulipanomania? But is that a coincidence? is there something more spiritual, in an extremely materialistic Protestant society in this  first economic bubble in history?Now we live in a materialistic society where all the festivities are
pagan, and pagan means peasant, because the peasant is the one linked with the land, whereas the religions of the book of intellect , had to use syncretism which means to transform a pagan rite in
Christian one. Cristianity is a sterile religion where nature is abhored, and considered as a bore as a pain , where afterlife is a something we will be chastised or rewarded in the next.hence this life is just like a transit in the aeroport, between a flight and the other. Nietzche pointed out materialism is a direct evolution of Christianity where Protestantism is the utmost perfection of  its materiality. No wonder Haloween became stronger when The all saints day, was forbidden and in Gaelic it means all saints, and now it s just a thing about monsters, but today the first of November it s the first day of the year for the Celts. materialistic ceremonies are nothing more than a desire to retun to a true sacrality of life, but without the conscience of it .The Celtic festivities of Halloween are supposed to be a reference to the Latin festivity of Pomona, as the idea of decorating trees with garlands and balls( fruits), others says it is an Celtic thing, but they took the idea of life after death from the Egyptians so why not?Christmas and this consumertic frenzy hides a pagan instinct. Christmas where made yo prevent saturnalias and Mitra days all festivities linked to death and life. To harvest means to
kill the plants and to make the land barren. snd the seed has to start everything again , in a relentless
activity. likewise   Tammuz  or Adonis , ( Adonai= Lord, and no wonder it s one of the name of Yavé) child born from an incest where the father is lured by his own spouse to have sex with his daughter. on his discovering that he is bound to kill her, but aphrodites had mercy on the gal and transformed in a myhrr tree, and then she bears life to little Adonis  by cutting a branch. aaphrodites felt in love with the kid, but he asked Demeter to take the kid for a while, but them she does not want yo give it back, so they had to make a trial where it was stared that he could stay part of the year with one lady and the other. When he grew up Aphro was so insane by the young stud that Apollo was jealous and made him be killed by boars. from it's blood , Anemones, so another bulb, recollecting yo our rite of planting bulbs. Apart from the Ishtar , Oris Semitic tradition there is a very old tradition of Bacchus , and the myth of eleusis where rites of born again where made more or less in this period. And with the idea of Demetra living six month in the hades and six on the earth , simbolising the energy of vegetation and it's decline during winter. do plant bulbs as a sacrifice and make gardening sacred